why

why is time passing so fast 

so fast i can barely take a breath

why is everything happening in seconds

i can hardly keep up

can it just slow down for a second?

it's already may. 

yet january feels like yesterday.

can i press the pause button?

just a minute to save myself. 

everything's changing so fast

can i just smile and enjoy how things are right now?

why must the laughter disappear

and turn into tears?

can i just smile and pretend everything's okay?

hoping that after i wake up things will turn out better